I can’t believe I am 31 and still ain’t the one. Am I wasting my time with Andrew? Our 3 year anniversary is coming up and he still hasn’t popped the question. I think being with him holds me back. Or is that the effects of smoking weed talking…I mean I did just smoke an hour ago. Gorilla Glue ain’t no other like you.
I know what my new year entails. I need to start saving. I need to stop going out. I have to plan ahead. I need to manage my money better and prepare for paying bills on my own without Andrew’s help.
Basically, this year I am preparing to be on my own once again in the near future. As much as I love Andrew I just know he is not the one for me. It’s crazy to finally say it but I think I have always known- I just chose to be in denial.
I am grateful for this relationship and I am thankful for him. I just know that this relationship has no future and I need to start thinking ahead and plan ahead.
Men just know. They just know when you’re the one they want to spend the rest of their lives with. I am in my thirties now and I really should know better. I am dating a 24 year old going on 3 years this month and while I am ready to settle down he says he is, too, but his actions speak otherwise. He is definitely making effort now and especially with my son. They get along pretty well and have computer knowledge in common.
I am ready to live my life with content and peace.
It’s only September 5th, 2021.
A year from today.
Where will I be?
Who will I be?
It Is what It Is 